fetish...

[cadence]

So I'm hoping there's going to be someone out there that can reassure me that I'm not a freak......

LOL rest assured you are not a freak, I am sorry to say though it is not a fetish of mine, but I do do it for him.

... there's something about the vaulnerabilty and trust, and knowledge that my discomfort is giving someone else so much pleasure... it just really gets me going...

I'm wondering though with this statement, is it the actual gagging that turns you on, or is it the fact that you are giving someone else that pleasure that turns you on more?
I know that I do it because he likes it, he encourages it. The initial act for me is something I could live without, but I do it and I like doing it only because he enjoys it and his enjoyment is what motivates me and turns me on more.