D'oh...how right you all were! *mental slap to forehead and big grin*

I'll tell you a bit more later (limited time before work right now) but just wanted to let all of you sweet souls who replied know that I'm fine.

Damn, he was so freaking cute about it. He knows me well, indeed, knows the hell I put myself through when I feel like I've failed him...every time I fear I've fucked up entirely, he surprises me with gently picking me up from the floor and giving me a hug.....know what I mean? *sighs* I love him.

Maybe I should channel my talent for worst case scenarios into writing, rather than into my D/s life

'k, thanks for all the support and for getting me some perspective...I'll respond with a bit more when I get home tonight. Love you all.

Silke