Thank you so much all for your replies!

Maddie: I do have trouble submitting at times, but due mostly to my headstrong and bratty nature, not because of lack of trust. He's never done anything that made my trust in him waver. We've known each other for over half a year, but the true D/s and training started maybe over a month ago.

Oz: Yes, dom PoVs are always welcome as well! *laughs* Disobeying sneakily is something I'd never do, it ruins the whole point of not only the D/s, but the relationship as well.

The thing is, as angelfreak said, I don't need nor even want the actual process or activity to be fun all the time. We aren't in just a 'scening' BDSM relationship (although I see nothing wrong with that type). I would not call it 24/7 if that was even possible online -- the D/s is not always shown and we do plenty of non-BDSM things together, but it is always lurking behind the surface. What'd be the point of punishment then if I could disobey and then safeword if I did not like it? I need something to deter me, or some way to deter myself. That's what I need to know: how do other submissives keep themselves from taking advantage of this 'control', and truly give it all up?