Dear Meester,

Finally I think things are starting to get back to normal, well fairly normal anyway… the Dr. says hubby may be able to start having sex next week (and then see my shaved pussy)… by the way I find that I must shave every other day to keep myself "bare"… is that normal?

Anyway, that’s what I do to keep myself shaved smooth for my Meester and while I know you like my cunt to be this way it still looks so silly like this…however, I do admit that now that I’m sort of used to it being shaved I am starting to feel a bit more stimulated whenever anything brushes against my cunt…is that normal too? Or is it only in my mind?

I’ve not worn panties now for, what(?), three weeks??? It’s been cold in the mornings and I can swear that I now have a new meaning to winning the cold war! <laughing> Seriously, I’ve only worn jeans a few times since your instructions to me (when I’ve done yard work and other things like that) and while I would think I would get use to the feeling of not wearing them I have not… in fact not wearing panties makes me very self-conscious and it also makes me feel a bit odd when I sit … I don’t know if the purpose of making me go without panties is to embarrass or humiliate me but I do know that like shaving my cunt for you it is oddly stimulating and I find myself wanting to touch myself much more often than I would have ever imagined….

So far this week (again, now that things are sort of getting back to normal) I have limited myself to cumming only once each day. This morning was in the shower, I just couldn’t stop myself while soaping my breasts and cunt… god it was so good!!!!

I also know that I will masturbate later tonight because I was "finally" able to make myself cum outside last night in the back yard (if you recall that was one of your suggestions Meester).

After hubby was asleep I went out through the garage (which is on the other side of the house) at about midnight. I was wearing a nightgown (and nothing else) but since he was asleep I knew that I was not allowed to wear clothes (whenever possible in the house) so I took the nightgown off in the garage before going outside. If I thought it was chilly in the mornings it was very chilly last night (I think the weather report was for the high 50’s last night) and my nipples, although hard by the time I took my nightgown off, became very hard and pointy and I had goose bumps all over them and the rest of me too…

From the side door in the garage I am able to stay close to the house and go to a small area that is near the rear of the yard. Our fence is five feet tall and while it really doesn’t offer much privacy during the day it does give some privacy at night, especially if some naked lady inches her way along the fence and doesn’t just walk out through the yard … at least I think it does <laughing>

I went to the corner of the yard and leaned back into the corner of the fence. I kept looking around to see if anyone was looking at me but there really was no way I could tell so I just kept faith that I was safe and unable to be seen. I was shaking from both the chilly night air and from the way I reacted when I took my nipples in my fingers and started pulling and twisting them. I pulled as hard as I could and very quickly realized that I had to keep my big mouth shut because I had started to make a lot of noise (moans and groans).

I guess I should tell you now, if I haven’t already told you, that I get quite loud when I am having sex and especially when I am being stimulated and even more so when I cum.

Anyway, I tried to keep as quiet as I could and since the police weren’t called I guess I was partially successful, however, the next time I do this there is no doubt that I will need to do something about stifling myself… I’m being serious about this, it was torture trying to stay as quiet as I could while pulling my nipples and then, when I put my fingers in my cunt and rubbed my clit oh my god!!!! I know I screeched and I had to just stop myself before I made too much noise. That may sound funny to you but believe me it wasn’t funny to me. I thought one of my neighbors had to have heard me and I just froze trying to stay still with my fingers in my cunt … not really possible with the way I was feeling then but I did try to stay still…all that accomplished was to make me want to do more to myself and despite my fear of making too much noise I started twisting my nipple harder and rubbing my clit more… when I came it was such a strong wave of emotion that washed over me I actually started to squat in the corner. And, despite all my fears I just stayed like that until I finally calmed down enough and got enough strength to stand up again.

I put my fingers in my mouth to taste myself and I wanted to do it again. I know I was not supposed to but I rationalized that you had told me that if I did it outside then I could have a second orgasm that same day so I took advantage of my rationalization as soon as I got back into the garage. To quiet myself I put some of the nightgown into my mouth as a gag and then, leaning against the door to the yard I put my fingers in my cunt again and started twisting my nipples again. It was not nearly as overwhelming as when I came in the yard but I have to tell you, Meester, it was quite a wonderful set of orgasms… a couple of really really big ones and lots of little ones that followed… sort of like little whispers reminding me of how my cunt needed to cum for you… I know I keep saying this but I hope I am describing all this so that both you and Mistress understand what I was experiencing…

Right now it is late, about 11:45 PM, and since hubby is sleeping in the room next to the den I am not naked, I am wearing (another) nightgown. However as you have instructed I am not wearing panties.

Once I send this letter to you I will check to see if you or Mistress are online. If you are not I am planning to go upstairs to my bedroom where I’ve left some rope and a gag and one of my vibrators in my dresser. I will only do a simple tie (just in case) but having the ropes and gag on (just thinking about tying myself up is driving me bonkers right now) and I want to take advantage of a "good thing" before any of the rules change <very big smile>

Tomorrow morning I am going to go to the flea market (that’s where I am able to buy "things" sometimes – like men’s belts for a couple of dollars, etc. <smile>) and since it is an open market in a large dirt field I will be wearing jeans and sneakers as it is totally impractical to wear a skirt and heels there. Some time tomorrow I will write and let you know what I have been up to and how things are going.

In the meantime (and by cc of this letter) I hope you and Mistress are well and I remain…

Your kutje