Have you ever seen someone absentmindedly running their fingers through their hair, or thumping their fingers on a table, or tapping a pencil on a desk, well, this afternoon while I was laying on the coach watching TV I was absentmindedly tapping my clit and by the time I realized what I was doing I was upset because (1) I was trying to avoid any direct stimulation because I’m not allowed to cum and (2) by the time I realized what I was doing my clit was throbbing and my hips seemed to move on their own for more…

I wasn’t naked and I certainly wasn’t actually "thinking" about much at all, but there I was, tapping away through my skirt with my hips slowly moving and my wanting more and more when I realized what I was doing and had to stop myself before it was too late.

Hubby is taking a shower in the small bathroom on this level of the house so I'm not naked or anything like that because he will be back in just a few minutes. Yet here I was, just flicking my clit and getting hornier by the minute…

I hope he is feeling "up to it" tonight because I really don’t want to spend the rest of the day/night thinking about this.

I’ve been much more into masturbation since I started tying myself up, as I’ve told you, but now, today, knowing that I am not permitted to cum for 48 hours (which I guess is down to about 40 hours from the time I read your instructions/punishment) it is becoming more and more important to me to cum. I wish I could just go and tie myself up with a vibrator in my cunt and a plug up my ass, gagged, blindfolded and cum and cum and cum…

I know it is more mental than anything else right now … well maybe not all mental <laughing> … but I am beginning to think this punishment is going to be more difficult than I imagined it would be…

I just heard the bathroom door open so he should be back in a few minutes. Got to go…

Maybe if we put in a really bad movie it would help … but then again I wouldn’t pay attention to it so that might make things worse…

Your kutje,