Ibelongtoyou,
Is it natural to be attracted to older women? Is it natural to want to be dominated and to worship her? It is natural to only ant to be submissive sexually? Of course it is. It is who you are and what you like.

Is it natural that your fantasies are more intense than what you want in real life? Most definitely. I find I have very extreme and even taboo fantasies at times and while they arouse me beyond belief I would never want to explore them in real life. I have many other fantasies that are not so extreme and even some of them I would never explore unless I met someone who inspired the need to explore them.

I think the fact that you don’t submit to every woman you find attractive says a lot about who you are. You are right the gift of submission is very special and should only given to those you deem worthy.

I was wondering what made you start doubting yourself. Just because of the last set f questions you asked.

Am I really into the BDSM lifestyle? What made you think you weren’t. It sounds like you are exploring and experiencing many things in your journey.

Am I really a sub or am I really a switch? To tell you the truth I don’t you well enough to hamper a guess but from what you have mentioned it seems you are focused on your submissive side.

Am I fit to enter this lifestyle? Only you can answer that question. It sounds like you have all ready started your journey into the lifestyle. My question would be why whould you think you aren’t fit?

Jade