I started out online beginning when I was 16, I am now 20 and I met a past Master for the first time, and have also been dating dominants since then, so to speak..

It was worse, it was better, and you can always make assumptions and think about what its like, but its Nothing like the actual experience. I’m prepared to serve, and that is what my online experiences taught me, it taught me about devotion and loyalty without physical contact or supervision, to be myself and be true to who I am. Online you don’t have to ‘cover yourself up’. There’s no one you’re trying to impress, nothing to be embarrassed about.

Online has been a wonderful starting place for me, and I don’t regret it despite its ups and downs. So much information out there, and by doing some research myself, I learned the differences between fantasy and reality, backed by the not-so-wonderful discoveries I made with my former Sir- but that’s Okay because I took something Wonderful from that experience. I learned what I needed from this life, what Im looking for to be happy, and how to be Careful about who I submit to and his intentions for me.

The experiences I’ve been getting has been deliciously eye opening and just exciting and fun. Theres nothing in the online world that can simulate the feeling you have when you are completely blindfolded, gagged, and bound to the point where all you can do is stand spread as you wonder where or when the crop will strike you next.

And though I had a horrible first RT with my last Master- it has prepared me and helped me to avoid situations where I could find myself with someone manipulative. This has allowed me to arm myself with the knowledge available. If I hadn’t started online I wouldn’t have been prepared to face the differences, but because I had that Access, I could at least get an idea what to expect and what to look for in posers, what to look for in a Master, really distinguish wants from needs, and learned that in reality that D/s and vanilla relationships are truly not so different. They are based off of honesty, trust, love, devotion, loyalty.

They just have cuffs, blindfolds, bondage, pain, and whipping added to them majority of the time. This has been an exciting, and even spiritual journey for me into submission, and I can't wait to see where it leads me. Pardon me for sounding corny lol

I have not found the Master for me yet, but Im looking and I know hes out there and Im just taking it one step at a time. So thus far, this is a success story, mainly because I truly learned that this is Me, unbarred and unrestrained, I know what I’m hoping for. I am submissive, damn proud of it, and it will be a long and Difficult road to find the right Master for me but once I find him it will be the Best thing in the world.

As I say.. itll be well worth waiting for. <3

~Daes