tired.of.vanilla,
I remember reading reading your ads and thinking that someone would be lucky to get you as a sub. After reading your post here I am even more sure of it. I even remember commenting idly to someone that I thought you were very tempting.
I know there are a lot of jerks out there, and I am saddened that you ran into them instead of the nice people. I would have sent you a private word of encouragement if I had known you were having these problems. You are attractive for your honesty and forthrightness, as well as your desire to find out who you are. I, for one, would be honored to Dom you, I just do not have the time to take on another sub.
Keep looking, there are some good Doms here, and you will find the right one if you are patient.