TJ,
To love completely, honestly, with compassion and passion, makes you anything but pathetic.... but from experience I understand why you think that way once burned. Love can be blinding, but one capable of loving that greatly only makes you an amazing human being and man. You loved with integrity, and one day a very lucky lady will be the rightful recipient of that love. I hope you're doing as well as you can through this saddening experience.
Lots of hugs to you.
os