Under New Management or Meeting A New Dom

[Jadetiger]

Ruby,
The task was to zipper both breasts and I completed the left and then the right by telling myself that I was the idiot that wanted to explore pain. It was a very good task. It made me realized that I was being way to anxious to learn and that I'm not ready for such advanced tasks. The doing the right breast really reinforced this in a big way. LOL

P.S. Coco butter really does help with the marks and bruising. I am starting to lean towards the mini pain slut side myself. whimper whimper

Jade

[Jadetiger]

Saracen tasked me with making a zipper then using it. First my left breast then my right. First my experience with making the zipper.

I will say it was stressful. I had the start over a few times before I finally got it completed. It took me 4 hours to make it and it didn’t really turn out well. It is my firm belief that the Dom should have to make the toys that he will use to torture his sub with, that way at least he gets to feel some of the pain.

Saracen had stated to start at the nipple and work my way out in a spiral then once complete to pull them off like a zipper. He said to start with the left breast first then to do the right breast.

I started with my left breast placing the peg on my nipple. It was already sore from our nipple play from the night before. I realized that I may fail the task. My nipple hurt and I didn’t think I could keep the peg on it for long. I started attaching the other pegs as fast as I could gritting my teeth as the pain in my nipple keep growing. I stopped for a second and took a couple of deep breaths to try and relax a little. My hands where trembling so bad from the pain that I was having a hard time handling the pegs. I tried to focus and grabbed the next peg to continue. It took what seemed like forever to get them on. I realized then that I was not at all turned on by the pain and that I really didn’t like this at all. I knew the worst was yet to come when I got to the end and had the pull the string. As I pulled the pegs off there was a feeling of bruised and torn skin. I kept telling myself that I was the stupid one who wanted to explore pain. By the time I got to the nipple I hated the zipper and was extremely unhappy with myself for not realizing what kind of pain the zipper was going to cause. I pulled the last peg off. I have to admit that I was pleased with myself for not saying all the bad words I was thinking in my mind out loud.

The right breast was even harder to peg. My fingers just didn’t want to work. I stopped trying to make it look like a spiral and just concentrated on getting the damn pegs on so I could get it over with. I knew then I was not a true pain slut and torture was really something that did not turn me on but I would finish my Dom’s task. Saracen deserved my best effort. When I started pulling of the pegs I realized what a silly child I was in regards to the BDSM world. I now have an even deeper respect for those would can endure this kind of pain because I am not one of them. I resisted the urge to throw the zipper in the trash and instead put it in a drawer as a reminder of all the things it taught me about myself.

I have to thank Saracen for my task. It open my eyes to many things about myself I did not know. I do have a very strong submissive nature that forces me to want to complete my tasks to serve my Dom. That I am not a pain slut in any sense of the word, as I understand it. Pain does not turn me on nor is it a mental challenge for me. I truly felt stupid for continuing my task and the only thing that made me complete it was the fact that I wanted to earn Saracen’s respect.

New Jade motto: Be careful what you wish for. You just might get it.

Jade

[Ruby]

Jade,

You honor us with another lesson learned and much wisdom in your post.

I, too, believe that a dom/domme should experience - as much as they can - what they want their subs to experience.

Let's face it, a male dom isn't going to be able to test a product for clits on himself. :-)

However, if he wants to use the evil steel cane on my butt, he can have it used on his first, anytime! :-[

So mini-pain slut versus big pain slut. There is a big difference.
I like enough pain to add spice to the play, but the marks, pain, etc, need to go away when the playtime is over. And I do mean the pain, not that nice tingling feeling that you keep with you cause you've been all sensitized.

Just looking at the zipper makes me want to run and hide.

You are so brave!

Ruby
XXX 000

[Jadetiger]

Ruby,
Thank you. I have learned a lot about myself. Saracen's taking me as a sub has me very excited. I have an extremely unusual drive to do as he commands and to please him. All I have to do is look at the marks on my breasts to know this is true. I have never had such a strong reaction to please a Dom before and I realize I need to temper this just a little bit. I believe I have been a little to enthusiastic in my need to prove myself a worthy sub to him. I am extremely new to this and need to take it a little slower. I guess I could blame it all on Saracen by saying that his style of domination triggers a strong submissive reaction in me but we all know that a submissive can take back control anytime they need too. The fact that Saracen’s see my submission as a gift only make me want to serve, please and submit to him even more. I have never felt so connected to my submissive side before and it is a gift that Saracen gave to me.

Hugs,
Jade

[Saracen]

Well, Jade,

You do present an interesting challenge to me.

I had certainly not intended that you would attempt a zipper on top of already painful nipples from the previous night - in which you exceeded all I asked of you.

A day's wait would not have been at all amiss! And to continue with the second zipper - well, you even have me frightened by your strength of purpose!

Nevertheless, you successfully completed your task, and in so doing have hugely impressed me.

As I say, a difficult challenge - I too must be more careful, in future tasks, lest your desire to serve overrides your own body's capacity to handle what we are jointly asking of it.

Consider me slightly chastened, also, and carefully considering our next steps together...

...that blend of challenge, pain and pleasure that should so delight us both in future

Saracen

[Jadetiger]

Sir,
Thank you for your praise and please do not be concerned. I must admit that I was shock by my need to submit and please you. It was extremely strong and was the only reason I could complete the task. It was the purest form of submission I have ever felt and was a wonderful gift. I am sitting here thinking I will type that you should not worry. That I will be more conscious of my actions in the future. The truth is you have awakened such strong submissive response in me that it is a promise I may not be able to keep at present. It is such a wondrous feeling that I don't even know how to explain it. I know it has made me very happy but I do need to come back down to earth. I am strong and smart so I will be able to adjust. The scene was intense but more so on an emotional level for me. I am sorry that I'm a challenge and a bit of headache at times.

Jade

Thank you for the task Sir. It has openned so many doors that where closed.

[wannabeXopsed]

Jade,
I have had the pain of the zipper in a task that was in the ST. I know how painful and agonizing it is. I am very impressed with your eagerness to perform, but yet I was worried that you had no idea of what your were getting yourself into. I am so proud that you have completed your task, and with no complaints, only soreness and a new insight to your submissive self. Hold you head proud, and as we see Sir S, is very proud, and consenous of you needs, how he needs to proceed. Lovely job, and very very impressive. I have mine at the bottom of a drawer as a reminder of how much i hate the zipper.

Sir Saracen,

I admire your courage to post to giving Kudos,praise and atta girls! And yet admit that you are far more aware of Jade's submissive side and to protect her from any damage. Further more that Jade could impress you!! Thank you for being what seems to be a great start for you two.
(btw, don't hurt our Jade, we will come and find you-just kidding)

I will await your next adventure with baited breath, as i love a great story unfolding before my very eyes.

Warmly
T