Okay, a quick update.

At the moment, I have decided not to rock the boat to much.

I have told my old master that I can't have anything to do with him anymore. Not until i get my head sorted out and it stops hurting that he doesn't love me. I've deleted his phone number and blocked him on the internet so the only way contact would happen would be for him to contact me. And if that happens, I figure it will make me so angry for him not repespecting my wishes, he can go to hell. Thats the plan anyway.

As for Mr. Vanilla, well, I'm going to give it another shot, minus the temptation and pressure that my old master put on me. I think, without him around to constantly compare other people too, life should be a lot easier.

Im going to see how it goes for a couple of months and then decide on what further course of action to follow, if any.

Thank you for all your advbice. I know it must be frustrating to you tat I am not following it all, but I need to take the path that my conscience can deal with at the moment. It's good to know that people are thinking of me.