I have experience subspace 3 times (2 online and 1 real life), and subdrop once (online).

It was mentioned earlier that people find it hard sometimes to express feelings online. I agree, it's really hard. I've only had one Dom that I felt was able to adequately deal with my emotions online. He could tell how I was feeling by the way I greeted Him. If you pay enough attention to every detail, it is possible to be very perceptive.

The first time I experienced subspace (online) was with a friend of mine who has been in the lifestyle for as long as I've been alive. He was able to bring me down safely and enjoyably.

The second time I experience subspace was in real life. I fell asleep afterward, but my Dom/boyfriend was able to take care of me, nonetheless.

Lastly, online, was a horrible experience. Subspace is great, but when you're that high, you fall hard. It took me a long time to realize what happened, because I was not familiar with subdrop back then. The only thing I really remember is that I was extremely depressed for a couple of days and I felt oddly suicidal. I'm not the type of person to commit suicide, which is when I first knew that something was seriously wrong. Fortunately, I had a friend in the lifestyle who was able to figure out what happened and bring me out of it.

Oh well. You learn from your mistakes, right?

-Nikki