Mistress Orchid,
i know what you mean about being forced to watch yourself orgasm - i find it makes me very uncomfortable as well. i love orgasming for my Master and i love doing it in whatever way He tells me to but there is just something about being forced to watch ones self that makes it that much more intimate - Master's favorite way of doing this seems to be to have me kneel infront of the mirrored doors on our closet, knees spread of course and hands clasped behind my neck with my butterfly on and Him at the remote!