Thank you all for the sentiments and support. Though there is no physical contact between any of us as friends, the depth of your thoughts and concern is no less real and no less tangible to me. It is appreciated more than you know.

I have been asked numerous times if there is a possibility of J and I reconnecting in the future. Truly, I have no answer for that. The process of dealing with what needs to be dealt with in this situation will be lengthy and complex at best, and must be focused on each day with utmost care and attention. J's choice and mine would be, of course, to see this situation through to a resolution and be together, but the reality of that is still some time away. The present will simply be a testament to the choice of loving even when there is no immediate rewards for doing so.

That being said, my request for the Forum members is this: when your thoughts turn to J and I, think of us not with sympathy, but smile for the love that exists beyond our circumstances. Look at the pain and the trials that surface each day in your own relationships, and try to look at the these hardships simply as another way to love and support your partner and, equally so, yourself. To recieve love is a beautiful thing, to know how to grow it in your own heart and give it away, I think perhaps is the secret to many things. I am happy each day to be learning that secret.

Thanks and affection to you all.

Amber