Thank you for your words of encouragement and wisdom. I did not post for attention by any means.. I just need support right now and I have no where else to turn. He was an amazing Master and will always be held high in my heart. I must grieve and move on. To linger in the pain would only hurt myself and him.

"Our love once was but now long gone,
the joy, the pain, the life we once had.
Now all you are and all you can be,
are simply between the pages of my diary..."

I scribbled this down the moment I found out what I had lost..

-Me