I tend to be much harder on myself as far as appearances go than on what appeals to me in other people. Ragoczy never lost his desire for me when I topped out at a size 14 but I was not happy with myself and felt less attractive to him in my own mind. Oddly enough, I did experience the sensation of feeling invisible in public.

I am now down to a size 4 and I feel extremely attractive. I am not entirely certain that it is being thinner that causes me to attract so much more attention in public as that I *feel* much more attractive and project a lot more self confidence. I think *that* is what attracts attention to me and keeps me far from invisible.

As far as how body type affects my view of other people... I prefer men to be thin but muscled and definately defined. Women I like soft and balanced; well-proportioned. If she's big on top then she needs to be big on the bottom, too.

-kitten