With me I have never really heard of this BDSM life style up until recently. I was always in control of things in bedroom and out. And I like the feeling of being "powerful" in the bedroom always do things my way and how I see fit. But never really hurt anyone severely. Til one night my ex boyfriend and I had talked about how he use to do a role play with his girlfriends. Pretend he was an intruder breaking in and rape his victims. I at first thought he was nuts and well he wanted to try it with me. So we did this role play and I have fought with him and then realized I was turned on this whole time. Forced me do things and was rough and dang it was amazing and came big time. But then that was that "one" time.
Then I was introduced to this erotic storie sites and I find myself drawn to "male domination" stories and I would get so turned on and would mastrubate hehe. Then I met this guy online he was like 25 years older than me and we been talking. I would call him "daddy" instead of "master" and he would tell me things he want me to do. That was after I told him what I had fanatized of being a sub and not have the control I use to have. One night I was at BlockBuster and was talking to him mobile. And he would say things that had me so horny. He told me to touch my self while I look for movies (outside of my clothes) but lucky there were much people. When I got to my car he told me get naked down below my waste and had to take pictures to prove it. And then I had to mastrubate and not to cum til I got to my driveway which its a 15 min drive. And not to stop when I was at a stop light. A couple of people had seen me and know what I was doing, it was day time btw and when I got home I had came big time. Good thing my car seat was leather. And was told to walk in my house naked from waste down and I had to tell him how that felt being told what to do. Every time he tells me what I had to do I had to say "yes daddy dear" and that day I had known that I am a sub deep inside. But was always afraid of showing it.
I hope one day I will get to expereince more of this lifestyle.