Hi and welcome, you will get a lot of help on here I think. I've only been a member on here a short while and I already know there are a lot of helpful people here.

I too have had submissive feelings since my childhood/teen years and also too repressed it for many years as I felt it was 'wrong'. I never had the courage to tell anyone of my feelings for fear of being rejected as 'strange'.

I came out of a long vanilla relationship 6 years ago with very similar feelings that you are having now.

I have now had a Master for 5 years. I have had many conflicted feelings along the way from the beginning to where I am now. It takes time to come to terms with your feelings when you have repressed them for so long and also to come to the realisation that you are not 'wrong' to feel this way.

Contact me if you want to chat further.

C xx