Oh my, I'm sorry about what happened to you, Kadence. I hope you're alright now. Whoever's fault it was, I'm sure you've made this a hard limit now, right? Probably not only because of what happened to you, but also because it might be hard to trust anyone with such a request again...

Do you think that, as a community experienced in such kinks and, given that I'm still learning about this lifestyle, it was irresponsible of my master to have me do such a thing?
Yup, I think it was irresponsible, kinda obvious, isn't it? With the way it turned out...

I mean, I put a lot of trust into those that I give control of my life to, and this has really messed me up. Was it his mistake, or was it mine, for not setting limits?
It's quite an extreme task he set you - did you talk about this before? Did you tell him that you had doubts about this or did you trust him blindly? I'm pretty sure you'll be more careful about what you agree to in the future...but I still think it would have been his 'job' to find out whether you fully understood what you were getting into, felt ok with it and to insure your safety as much as possible. I'd have a problem with trusting him again.

Good luck whichever way you go, Kadence.

Silke