I was about 4 or 5 years old when I had dreams about chunks carved out of my body. It was done always by girls. It wasn't a horror scene, my body didn't bleed at all, it was inside just like outside, smooth skin and nothing else. And there was no pain.

Later I always enjoyed stories where people were tortured and humiliated. In the age of puberty my sexual fantasies were masochistic. Later I read about masochism and I could identify myself. The BDSM subculture is a surprise for me.

Thank you if you took the care of reading this late post. It is the second occasion in my life when I could reveal my childhood dreams.