THANK YOU ALL... it has been very helpful... i will try to be more patient.. but i also know part of my problem is even when they are willing to i feel guilty and fake it b/c they will try sooo hard and long... not to mention a HUGE turn on and part of why i still have sex sooo much is to please my partner... i can definently cum myself but only in one particular way.. with all my weight on my hand and not even any fingers inserted inside me.. complete clitorial stimulation.. there seems to be no other position that has worked for me.. i have tried many others... as for toys i myself have used a few vibrators (not a rabbit though) and like guys when they go down on me i am stuck at the edge but cant go over... it is more torcher then enjoyment which would be fun if i was tormented for a long while but eventually was permitted to cum hehe... anyways the guys i have been with considering they have all been vanilla tend to be scared of using toys.. seeing them as intimidating to their own sexual power.. i have mentioned it a couple of times to them and i always seem to get that weird look like are u fucking kidding me.. excuse the language.. oh pss shayna i am 22 lol... i also dont care how i cum vaginally, clitorially, anally (heard that was possible?).. however i just would like to experience it once.. but i do know patience is probably a big problem for me as well ... once again thank you all.. i really appreciate the advice and if you have anymore please feel free to share it with me