Most of what you wrote sounds very familiar. Aside from the distance factor. I am also new to the lifestyle and new to a relationship with my Master who has been in the lifestyle for many years. He is making me take things slow on purpose I think. I was kind of frustrated until I realized that we have the rest of our lives to do all of these things that I'm curious about. There really is no need to rush it. Afterall, the experience that he has didn't happen over night. It took years for him to do all of those things too.

I would ask your Sir a few questions.....

Does he have experience with the things you want to do? Is he willing to do them again?

Does he really believe this is as far as he can/will take you? Or is it just harder for him to put the effort into it because of the time difference?

Then maybe you should make a list (Do you keep a journal for him?) of what it is you feel is missing. How far is it that you want to go? Are all of these things centered around play or are there other things, protocols or such, that you feel you are missing out on day to day? I know I have a lot of questions it's just that it's very hard to give advice when I really don't have enough information to do so.

Then I would advise you to consider joining The Womb. It is a submissives only access section of the library where we talk about all these things and more and help each other work through them confidentially. If you are interested you would need to send a private message to DiablosLittleOne and she can give you access to it. It's helping me a lot and seems to be helping the other girls too. Many of us are going through similar things.

sati