Thanks denu - I'll definitely take stronger, wiser & more serene over the chaos in my head at the moment.
I've done a good bit of rethinking everything that happened & wondering what clues I should have picked up on sooner that it was going to come to this point. Hindsight is 20/20 I suppose but not particularly productive. It is what it is & I need to deal with the situation rather than kicking myself for what I didn't do or see sooner.