Worried I'm asking too much?

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I have only ever had one master and it was a very long term relationship. He was everything i didn't know i needed in a master. Since this ended with him I have been looking for a new master of the same variety.. He was "dominance" hot and cold, hard and soft, yes and no, night and day. He was much older than i am, experienced in many offline s/d scenes. Very respectful of my limits and my feelings while also keeping me where i needed to be, by his side. I know I sound as if i'm still swooning but that is not the case,

Swooning or missing him - your feelings are your feelings. What could be wrong with that?

I'm just trying to convey the respect i have for him. In my search i've come across so many "doms" that are nothing but vulgar and rude and although i feel i have little experience in this.. they don't seem to know the real meaning of their roles.

I worry i'm asking to much of people, i fear i wont find the master that i need.

Maybe you are, right now. Maybe you are looking for someone very much like your former Master. But people are so different...

Would it be any good trying to look into yourself to be quite sure what exactly it is you need, so you are better prepared to look? You might find it in a completely different type of person.

Maybe when you are ready to really let go of your first relationship? It takes time always, but especially with a long term relationship, of course.

How long ago since it ended?