Silke's ramblings...

[Silke]

Fuck, fuck, FUCK! You know, I thought I was doing pretty darn well this week...but it just all collapsed like a card house. *sighs* I think my resolve to work through being lonely only works until Sundays, then all the energy is used up and I'm raw...no protective layer left.

I knew I'd probably only get to talk to Master on weekends, so I was ok...until now. It's Monday now, officially...no word from Master the whole weekend.....and with the new work week starting....probably another wait until the weekend....and then? *sighs* I don't know how many weeks like this I can take!! It's not only being lonely - it's not knowing when or if he'll be there, spending my nights online waiting for the slight chance that he might log on and not wanting to waste one of those precious opportunities, not knowing fuck all...only hoping, wishing, praying, crying...trying to figure out what can be so damn difficult in just sending a single line to say he cares but can't talk right now? Am I being unfair? Maybe. But right now I can't do anything about it...I just miss him like crazy, miss him so much it hurts. And he's the only cure - go figure!

[cookiecat]

ohhhhhhhhh silke - sits next to you, puts arm around you and hands you my martini. i'll cry a little with you....

although i got to talk to my sir - and i am so grateful for that, we had a weird row. not even really a fight, maybe a misunderstanding? i got the "talk" - not sure when he can be with me next, we both have responsibilities and all.

which then makes me feel just like what you said - i'm running to the computer, hoping to catch him, find an e-mail, just checking in....but i got a little bratty and said well of course i have a real life, too - does he think i'm just sitting here waiting for him? which i am but....

sighs. oh silke - all will be well, i just know it. in the meantime, let's put our sexiest shoes on and go out. (or....put our jammies on, pop a big bowl of popcorn & rent a movie??)

take very good care. cookie

[Talia]

Fuck, fuck, FUCK! You know, I thought I was doing pretty darn well this week...but it just all collapsed like a card house. *sighs* I think my resolve to work through being lonely only works until Sundays, then all the energy is used up and I'm raw...no protective layer left.

I knew I'd probably only get to talk to Master on weekends, so I was ok...until now. It's Monday now, officially...no word from Master the whole weekend.....and with the new work week starting....probably another wait until the weekend....and then? *sighs* I don't know how many weeks like this I can take!! It's not only being lonely - it's not knowing when or if he'll be there, spending my nights online waiting for the slight chance that he might log on and not wanting to waste one of those precious opportunities, not knowing fuck all...only hoping, wishing, praying, crying...trying to figure out what can be so damn difficult in just sending a single line to say he cares but can't talk right now? Am I being unfair? Maybe. But right now I can't do anything about it...I just miss him like crazy, miss him so much it hurts. And he's the only cure - go figure!

I feel you hun. *heart crying for the one I seek*