Kate - I hope your work issues are resolved and your sweet little frog didn't have to break anybody's knees. *giggles* So cute! Thank you both for making me smile. *hugs*

Tojo - This thread is indeed wonderful and so much more than I expected when I started it. I still get goosebumps from the amount of care and support everybody has spilled into our secret room...wow!

cookie - I'm still a newbie myself, maybe not so much to the forum anymore, but to the lifestyle. And I so understand how you're feeling. Turning over a new page is a challenge sometimes and a bit scary, but with a strong and caring community like this to draw from...it all becomes easier and you don't feel as lost anymore. *raises glass* To better days ahead and to us!

About last night *smiles*...I didn't only find an email but also got to talk to Master for a bit. Oh my God, I felt giddy as a teenager in love, almost drunk with happiness. Lol, and I'll call him Santa from now on! He changed a few of our rules, added some fun stuff to my daily routines...all to keep me busy and feel loved while he can't be there for me as much as we both want. And it helps, you know. The novelty keeps me focused and the treats put a huge smile on my face. Thank you so much, Master. *hugs and kisses*

What really caught me off guard was the intensity of emotions I went through while talking with him, though. I broke out in tears when he told me to keep in mind that he loves me and thinks of me. Did I need to hear it that bad? I hardly regained composure long after he had to leave. It's as if someone's pulled the plug on me and emotions run wild...I've never been that way before. If you'd ask my friends they'd tell you I was pretty levelled out, hardly go to extreme moods, never quite let go and if I did, it was only towards the positive end of the scale. Even my mum said something like that the other day - that I'd always been a mystery to her and she never could 'read' me. How can someone tear down the facade I've kept so long in just a few months? He pushes my buttons - conciously or not - with such ease, it blows my mind and leaves me breathless. I'm still struggling to find ways to deal with those emotions, but it's probably the biggest gift he ever gave me and also the biggest gift from me to him, and the scariest and most fulfilling thing I've experienced. I've never trusted anyone to lead me to this place before.

Have a great day, everyone. Love y'all!