To add to a little bit of the above....

When I left my ex, I had no job and he was on a huge power trip with finances. My mother continually reassured me that nobody would let me sink. I kept saying that timing had to be just right as well. But as the months passed I just couldn't take it any more. I left and accepted help from my family. My Dom always says: life is too short to be unhappy.

@ denuseri... agreed! Anybody that would remotely expose their children to this lifestyle just blows my mind. My daughter *loves* my Dom/boyfriend. She even said: Mom, its cute that you and him are in love

Happiness is key. I can only hope that you pursue it. Your efforts will not be a lost cause.