Aww j,
Sorry to hear things aren't going in a way that you might like. I'm sure though that if your relationship is a good one and your husband wants you to be happy, he'll try and find ways over time to find some middle ground with you. I'm sorry you're feeling depressed, but I hope that with time that things will improve.
In the meantime, you're always welcome to bitch loudly and regularly...I'll always be happy to listen.