help???

[Sir_Russell]

subs fail and subs test their Doms sound like you had a little of both going here. Next time he assigns you tasks that you have a real problem with then call him or email him explain and beg to be allowed to change the task. A Dom that doesn't listen to his sub isn't much of a Dom. Also a Dom that knows he have given a very difficult area of your life that he must help you with it.

[Ruby]

fallenstar,

I'm so glad that you told him.

Care to share the results of that?

Instead of beating yourself up, let's look to the future.

Next time he assigns you tasks that you have a real problem with then call him or email him explain and beg to be allowed to change the task.

I agree with Sir Russell.

If my Nat was having difficulty with any of the tasks
I'd given him, I would fully expect him to let me know
sooner, rather than later. The stress, anxiety and resentment of holding in our frustration aren't worth it.

To your success,

Ruby

[fallenstar]

first off i hate when computers freeze, i was in the process of posting
so i was talking to Master last night via AIM and told him i needed to tell him something. he Was busy but said to tell him anyway-- i quite nearly chickened out. so i told him that i had disobeyed him and i had stopped. what ever i was expecting as a response was certainly Not to be ignored. i couldnt handle it. after five minutes(it felt SO much longer than that) of silence i begged him to Please say something. he told me that he was very unhappy with me, and that he hated to be disappointed(looks down shamefully). but that since i was new and he honestly didn't have the time to see to it, he would let it pass.this time. i felt he way being FAR too nice so made sure i told him that i had wanted to test him and see how far i could push him. he only told me never to do it again. that he didn't have the time at the moment to be as stringent with me as he wished or to pay as much attention to me as he wished. i was more than lucky, and have never before been glad for his busy schedule-- because of it i got a freebie and nothing more than a scolding and a threat to never do it again. i know whats coming if i decide to test him again so hopefully i've learned enough from this to try my best not to disobey him so easily again. and i will strenuoulsy add, that the knowledge he was disappointed in me was worse than anything else he would have done had he the time.