Master went away :-(

[PropertyOfMasterJoey]

Oh believe me i would never try to hurt Master. That would only make Him angry with me and i'd end up hurting myself. When He's upset with me it's the worst feeling in the entire world. i'm working very hard while He's away to keep Him proud of me, and He tells me every day that He is which makes it easier. i'm just a very clingy person and when He's not here it just doesn't feel right. Sleeping is the hardest part. i usually either sleep curled up at the foot of the bed so i can get up to make Him breakfast without waking Him, or He'll hold me in His arms on cold nights or just when He feels like it. When i'm bad i either sleep on the floor or in a kennel, but i'd rather be in the kennel with Him in the room than alone in bed.

[AdrianaAurora]

i'm just a very clingy person and when He's not here it just doesn't feel right. Sleeping is the hardest part.

I so know what you are going through. My husband/Master is away about half the time, every month, sometimes more. It wasn't always like that (only in the past two years), in fact for the first 4 - 4.5 years of our relationship we were practically joined at the hip - some not so kind people nicked us Siamese twins, lol. When He took this new job/client, it caused some tension between us - I wasn't happy about Him being away, and I don't exactly approve of the client. The separation anxiety - I thought I was going to die the first few times, two weeks seemed like such a long time. When it comes to Him, I am terribly clingy and needy.

It doesn't get easier, but you do learn to tolerate it.

Two things help me cope: 1) I throw myself into work, our son, I see my friends, I catch up on things I tend to low prioritize when He is here, I do things to make myself more pleasing to Him when He gets back (which can include anything between shopping for lingerie, visiting the spa or learning a new language or skill).
And we do talk every day on the phone, several times.

and 2) Its important to Him. He is a man who values pride and honor very highly. He takes great pride in His business and what He has made of it. I voice my opinions to Him - but in the end I always support His decision. (Just like He does when it comes to my career.) If I asked Him, dead serious, to drop it on my account - He would. But it would kill Him inside and I could not live with that. More than anything I want Him to be happy and content - for that, as far as I am concerned, price is no object.

You are not alone, hang in there.

xxx

Adriana