Conflicting emotion

[leo9]

If you're imply that you're afraid you're gay, you're not: you're submissive. As an orientation, that trumps the homo/heterosexual one. If you weren't straight at heart you wouldn't experience this as so deliciously humiliating.

You seem to have a lifestyle that makes everyone happy, so enjoy it and don't worry about how you would look to uncomprehending outsiders. Unless, of course, worrying about it makes the degradation even more exciting

[hopperboo]

If you're imply that you're afraid you're gay, you're not: you're submissive. As an orientation, that trumps the homo/heterosexual one.

I disagree....

(In the sexual sense, not with it trumping being a submissive to both men and women).

[blythe spirit]

Okay, what's wrong with me, cos in reading your post, amislaaf, my clit did a little twitch? lol

I understand your conflict. There are dark places my mind goes in fantasy and I am not only aroused beyond belief, but have the best orgasms ever. Then, afterwards, I feel ashamed and that shame can last for days. And even though I vow never to go there again, ultimately, something (like your post) takes me down that long, dark path again. Obviously I have no self-control. hehehe

Will you get over it? Hmmmm? I never have and know I never will so, I just live with the shame, cos my frickin' fantasies bring me such awesome pleasure.

[amislaaf]

your clit twitches and my cock stiffens when we think of these things, do you care to chat a little more about our intersts??