Quote Originally Posted by shayna View Post
I think i have always been submissive, but not in a sexually way. If there was a party or get together id always be the one to ask if anyone needed anything, hand out drinks, see if everyone was doing okay needed anything, wanting something. People would think i was a carpet for people to walk on, and yes people did use me like that sometimes, but its in my nature to make sure everyone is happy..
I've been some where on the same lines to shayna.

i tend to want to please everyone in my life. i ake sure that i take care of certain aspects of people.

But my story, was a long one i think. it was found along with my gender identity as well. I am a mtf trans-sexual. but, i for some reason was able to understand what the internet was an exactly how to look for what i needed sexually. it wasnt until recently that i really found myself as a sub.

i actually talked about the experience in my blog post, my first ever in this community. but i have met this Dom online through myspace initialy. then we started talking on AIM. after about the third day of talking, we started our Dom/sub relationship.

i was always scouring the internet and media for sex and anything with sex. i actually came across tranny porn and that's where i found out what was going on with me and was like oh...then i started seeing sexuality as a different thing all together and have been ashamed of it for some time, but still proud and feeling like i have to always hide and protect myself all of a sudden.