Thank you Ozme. I think that was my problem before, I comfused chemistry for lust and just wanting to be able to submit. I am realizing more and more that finding a Master is more about finding myself first. I decided after reading several different posts that it would be more to my advantage to get to know people on here and other sites and take my time to train myself until that fateful moment when I find Him. I am waiting on access to the taskee board so that at least I will be able to work on myself and find out more about my nature and what it is that I want. I am incredibly greatful for finding this board. Sometimes I think that it was put here for me and me alone because you all have TRULY been speaking to me! LOL