Abuse and Awareness

[Arria]

That gets in the way of relationships. I don't really know how to tone it down. Any thoughts?

Time, patience with yourself, and a partner who knows what´s going on inside your mind were the things that helped me. All of them together.
And even having all that, it was extremely hard for me.

At times I actually tried to push him out of my life just because my feelings for him and the way he was able to influence me, or rather my own willingness to submit under his control (which had never happened to me that way before, never once), scared the shit out of me.

Sometimes I don´t know how he´s been surviving the now almost 12 years with me. *lol*

[kalitat]

Time, patience with yourself, and a partner who knows what´s going on inside your mind were the things that helped me. All of them together.
And even having all that, it was extremely hard for me.

I know the feeling. I really struggled with being a submissive, wondering if I really could submit. But I did find a wonderful experienced Dom who helped push me to be honest with him and myself. I did flashback at one point but he seemed to know what was going on before I did.
So yes, I agree, professional help and a patient Dom make all the difference in the world. One thing I have also found is once trust has been given it is usually forever. (Unless like Arria said they are truly an asshole). lol