As I'm reading through these replies, I'm finding it very interesting how most of you knew you were submissive at a young age. I had an inkling, but I never pursued it any further because I come from a very...not necessarilly "strict" or "religious" family,(religion in my family has always been one of those "okay, we're religious so that the neighbors shut up", seeing as my dad liked to claim that he wasn't a "practicing" Catholic), but a close-knit kind. Because my father is a Marine, we've moved around a lot, and that affected how me and my family held on to relationships. We were very comfortable with the idea of leaving after every three years because there was the phone and all that jazz, but my mother, secretly, doesn't like people all that much. But she keeps up appearances. And that's something that I've learned from her. I keep up appearances.
So I surpressed those little wantings for something less-than-appearance appropriate.
Well, until recently.
I didn't lose my virginity until I was 18 to a guy that was a considerable deal older than me, and also the reason I more or less discovered who I am and what I enjoy, something I'd never experimented with before. Mostly because it was extremely hard for me to form emotional connections with the people that I was "supposed to be dating" at my age. I mean, when you're 14, 15, 16, a D/s relationship is not considered "healthy" or "normal" in a time when I should be dating high school boys and going to prom and getting my driver's license and applying for college.
So I did all that. Because I had to, not because I wanted to. I was- literally- guilt-forced into going to homecoming and prom my senior year by my mother, because I'm her "only daughter". Come graduation day, I left immediately after I picked up my diploma and didn't say goodbye to anyone. My mother understood
(side note: I live in one of those "perfect" communities, where everyone has a manicured lawn and the subdivisions are gated and everyone is friendly to your face and all the wives drive minivans and are married to former football players in high school or business executives. It would appear extremely cutesy and perfect to an outsider, unless you know about the double murder-suicide that happened recently. It was kept very hush-hush).
So summing that whole ridiculously long post up, this is new to me, and I really want to explore the lifestyle. And I'm glad that there's something like this, and that I'm not just strange.