i've had a whole load of small things rush and click into place this last month, from subconciously pushing a relationship that i knew in my heart wasn't going to go anywhere, towards wanting him to dominate me when it wasn't a natural thing for him, just a reaction to what i was doing..to acknowledging a whole host of things and feelings that i've had for as long as i can remember..preteen fantasies/daydreams where i'd be in the house and the man would come in and take me into his control..a yearning for something i could never verbalise..feeling the glow when i achieved something for someone with no come back..how i naturally avoid direct eye contact and feel myself burning up when im walking past men..how in my masturbation i do certain things to myself or say stuff, positions etc etc.

i came here trying to find something, to eek it out of me, the internet, safe and full of information, not all of it suitable or wise, but i'm sensible enough to seperate wheat from chaff, i'd like to think.
i found a Dom on this site, who is wonderful, for me i think, thoughtful, patient, firm and giving of his time. i have nothing and noone to compare Him as a Dom to, but i feel i'm very lucky to have been found and accepted by Him.
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