Who/what brought out the inner sub in you

[littlepony1]

i've had a whole load of small things rush and click into place this last month, from subconciously pushing a relationship that i knew in my heart wasn't going to go anywhere, towards wanting him to dominate me when it wasn't a natural thing for him, just a reaction to what i was doing..to acknowledging a whole host of things and feelings that i've had for as long as i can remember..preteen fantasies/daydreams where i'd be in the house and the man would come in and take me into his control..a yearning for something i could never verbalise..feeling the glow when i achieved something for someone with no come back..how i naturally avoid direct eye contact and feel myself burning up when im walking past men..how in my masturbation i do certain things to myself or say stuff, positions etc etc.

i came here trying to find something, to eek it out of me, the internet, safe and full of information, not all of it suitable or wise, but i'm sensible enough to seperate wheat from chaff, i'd like to think.
i found a Dom on this site, who is wonderful, for me i think, thoughtful, patient, firm and giving of his time. i have nothing and noone to compare Him as a Dom to, but i feel i'm very lucky to have been found and accepted by Him.
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[shishagal]

beginning to think im a one and only out here lol.Every post seems to be from ppl that always new they were submissive .i have always been dominant in everything but not in this kind of life style.I've always been head strong and things had to be done my way or there was hell to pay (ask my 2 ex hubbys) Meet a Dom at a party who i became friends with and as he explained more about bdsm i found myself getting excited and found the whole thing very erotic. I had the chance to go with him to his collared subs and join them for a bit of fun and now he is my Master.I've never enjoyed life so much even the pain is great yes i get punished a lot as im still cheeky and try to show im still very dominant but failing badly He always wins in the end usually by just threatening to cane me (i hate the can) but love the crop/floggers and other punishment tools.Ok im going to shut up now lol
love whips and licks xx