That is amazing that some people can remember back to when they were five or seven years old or maybe I'm just too old to remember back that far now. I do remember a couple things when I was around seven but they were particularly memorable events like birthdays and Christmas.

I do remember, quite vividly, having some really perverted fantasies around eleven years old. They were all over the place and included ideas that I must have picked up from catching a glimpse of some movie I probably wasn't supposed to see but I remember a lot of torture and often sexual torture most of which where I was dominating a female. I think I developed what I thought, (at the time), was an unhealthy sense of superiority and craved the idea of making a female my slave. I suspect that led to my feeling guilty enough and/or curious enough that I thought I should play the victim part.

So now, I just find it difficult to settle for one or the other. Both are extremely exciting and I get a lot of satisfaction out of either role. I realize that just doesn't seem to make sense to many and I don't know how to explain it any better. It's kind of like I want it all.